it has been so long ever since i updated my blog. well firstly, that's nothing really much to talk about cos i am still going on with the usual routine. It is really very boring and i am getting quite sick of it. i am quite pissed with myself as i just can't seem to find time for everything.... for myself, my friends and family. what's wrong with me. esp with my friends, i really have to say sorry to them. somehow i am always the one who can't meet up with them, not even for a simple meal.

signed up for the NUS FOC. initially i was quite enthusiastic about it. but somehow, a inner voice kept pulling me back and refrain me from freeing myself from my self- constrain shell. the thought of going out and meeting people makes me feel insecure. this makes me ponder over why i am like that. is that a bad sign or is just part of growing up....

probably is my resistance of going for the camp that leads to the twisting of my ankle. so now, all the more i have the reason to not join the camp.....

can someone please help me find the route to break free!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

went for nus checkup ytd.... nam it took me 6 hours plus.... stuck at the x ray centre for like more than half the time. i can say that even the slowest polyclinics and hospitals are faster than them... had to go for urine test and i know nuts about it.... somehow when i told rebecca about it i spoke to loud. so the nurses heard it and they started laughing.... lucky i took my blood pressure straight after food cos i just hit the normal blood pressure mark.... the nurse was like stunned at my low blood pressure for reasons i don't know.

i just realised that i lost 5kg ever since i worked in sgb.... and i gained back 1kg aft working in MOE.... damn gonna go on diet again!!!!!!!!!!

going for FOC next week.... wish me luck...

damn..... why do i have so many plans in me and not even one is done.... haven gone out with 2T38 guys yet.... haven gone out with sgb friends and i haven gone out with han, xuan and morris. what have i been doing? i also have no idea. been feeling very lethargic recently. once i am out of the home i feel like going back. but when i am at home, i feel like getting myself out immediately.... something is wrong with me. i could even fall asleep while working!!!!!!!!! was staring at the com when the next moment i just dozed off.

QET is round the corner and i have not done any preparations yet..... well done hazel. well i guess i really have to do something about it....

missing school real badly. or maybe i should say i miss the company. though i am getting along well with my colleagues but all of them are 30 over. moreover, they are all teachers. the gap is really great. there are lots of stuff that we don't relate with one another. do feel very lonely most of the times. the feeling is like a vacumn out there sucking me dry....

HAN COME BACK!!!!!!!!!!! i am bored.... watched 200 pounds beauty. not a bad show. it is pretty good and they have nice songs. got hooked on it but sadly i have to return it back to han....

OMG!!!!!!!!! HAZEL GOT BITTEN BY A FISH!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT IS LIKE SO UNBELIEVEABLE!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HAD BLOOD OOZING OUT FROM THE WOUND. LUCKY THAT PIRAHNA-LIKED FISH IS NOT POISONOUS IF NOT I WOULD BE DIED BY NOW. I PRESUME THE FISH MUST BE DAMN HUNGRY TO THINK IT ACTUALLY JUMPED OUT OF THE WATER TO 'EAT' MY THUMB. BLEAH.... SHOPKEEPER ABUSE THE FISH MAYBE

went kboxing with my beloved flute section members last sat. i was quite enjoyable. can still remember ellyne taking random photos. met up with them at cine that day but before that i went to shop abit while waiting for them. bought a dress for 18 bucks!!!!!!!!! can anyone belief this???? met liang bao on our way up. it is damn funny cos ellyne and xin mistook him for someone else. talked to him for a while then met up with chen yi. ellyne and chen yi chose all the weird songs. i can never forget the odd song that ellyne sang cos the mtv is damn sadistic and the lyrics are quite morbid. the dolls in that mtv was damn scary. oh well this is quite personal as i never like dolls. in fact i am quite scare of them. brings back fond memories i had in cj when i freaked out over that barbie doll's head darcy was throwing around the class.

towards the end of the kboxing, me and xin ended up doing puzzle.... that piglet puzzle she bought for ellyne. the piglet is damn cute but i prefer the chip monk piglet is holding on to lol.....

met up with my parents for dinner aft that:)

life is getting kinda monotonous..... it just revolves round work and home. i wke up every morning to prepare for work and the moment i reach home, i crash on the bed..... oh well, i guess most working class people are like that....

lunch with wil-kie and lee is quite fun.... hope i am able to catch them today...

damn i am just like xin now i think... getting hungry at the oddest time.... and then like a pregnant woman i just keep eating and eating in my office.... should stop eating so much bleah....

my colleagues love to make fun a me for some reasons i don't know why... one was commenting that the way i walk is very robotic another one say i walk like marching etc... is there really any problems in the way i walk? argh....