i hate farewells and graduations..... that's why i finally made up my mind not to eat with them as this might be the last lunch we can have as a class...... maybe is just me... i prefer to hide in one corner and cry when no one is around.....i just realise how heart wrenching it is to say goodbye to my classmates and cj.... nonetheless, i still cried a bit.... just can't hold back my tears....
i think i said something reallly really wrong.... but many stuff are not meant to be said on blogs so....i shall just not mention it....i hope everything will be fine soon and i shall just not comment anything in future.

i just can't help feeling sad that tomorrow is actually the last day of school and i might not get to see most of my friends in the future anymore.... friends that are close.... people whom i am not so close.... i just can't imagine the days without them..... the fun times we had together.... the memories that are locked in my heart..... not that we can't keep in contact in the future given the advancement of technology... but everything will not be the same as before anymore.... we wouldn't get to see one another everyday.... i totally agree that sometimes we do take the people around us for granted and we might have hurt their feelings subconsciously....it is only when we realise that we might lose them forever then we will regret for not treating them better and not cherish the times we had together..... but well life still has to go on..... i am sorry my friends if i did not treat you guys well or hurt you feelings.... you all are always in my heart... and the memories we had are always lock in my heart.....hazel please don't cry tomorrow..... be strong!!!!!!!!!!

why is everything falling apart........ i always thought that our class is free from politics..... oh please people it is pur last week in school.... can we just stop conflicting and treasure the remaining times we have together.......

there must be sth wrong with me lately.... i kept dreaming about schools and exams. am i like undergoing lots of stress.... other than that... i kept having weird dreams too....and the weird thing is that when i had weird dream xin will always be in the context....omg what's wrong with me..... i actually did dreamt of ms lee telling us to behave ourselves as our testimonials are still with her too......... damm it something is very wrong..... had bio tuition yesterday..... finally i see some glimpse of hope after my prelims which was a disaster. hope i can still keep my momentum for studying till a lvls.....:)

many times in life, people moan over their mishaps and unluckiness... well i really thing that i am consider lucky to have supportive and helpful friends around me.... esp wei xin... i really thank God for making her my friend.... a lot of times i really think that i trouble her alot.... and she tolerating my whinings..... lolx.... i love you xin.....!:) thinking that she actually went through a lot of trouble in helping me get a bio tutor........and a lot of stuff that she helped me before.... they may seem trivial but to me.... it means alot....someone told me before that we should never be oo emotionally attached to someone.... as we can never predict the future... in order not to get hurt we shold not be so emotional.... but in my point of view i don't think so..... everyone should have at least someone whom they can really rely on the trust..... even if one day we go separate ways.... we still have precious memories which we cherish..... and i believe true friendshp will really last for very long.... okay don't get me wrong i am straight.... is just that.....i have alot to tell and thank xin and my beloved friends around me!!!!!!!!!! i love you all guys!!!!!!!!!!!!

finally did the test from xin's blog.... i thinkit is damn cool...... can't imagine i am the same as cariann.... i am SIX.... hahaha

"I am affectionate and skeptical"

Questioners are responsible, trustworthy, and value loyalty to family, friends, groups, and causes. Their personalities range broadly from reserved and timid to outspoken and confrontative.

How to Get Along with Me

• Be direct and clear.
• Listen to me carefully.
• Don't judge me for my anxiety.
• Work things through with me.
• Reassure me that everything is OK between us.
• Laugh and make jokes with me.
• Gently push me toward new experiences.
• Try not to overreact to my overreacting.

What I Like About Being a Six

• being committed and faithful to family and friends
• being responsible and hardworking
• being compassionate toward others
• having intellect and wit
• being a nonconformist
• confronting danger bravely
• being direct and assertive

What's Hard About Being a Six

• the constant push and pull involved in trying to make up my mind
• procrastinating because of fear of failure; having little confidence in myself
• fearing being abandoned or taken advantage of
• exhausting myself by worrying and scanning for danger
• wishing I had a rule book at work so I could do everything right
• being too critical of myself when I haven't lived up to my expectations

Sixes as Children Often

• are friendly, likable, and dependable, and/or sarcastic, bossy, and stubborn
• are anxious and hypervigilant; anticipate danger
• form a team of "us against them" with a best friend or parent
• look to groups or authorities to protect them and/or question authority and rebel
• are neglected or abused, come from unpredictable or alcoholic families, and/or take on the fearfulness of an overly anxious parent

Sixes as Parents

• are often loving, nurturing, and have a strong sense of duty
• are sometimes reluctant to give their children independence
• worry more than most that their children will get hurt
• sometimes have trouble saying no and setting boundaries

got back bio results. it was bad man.... just don't understand why my results always like that.... so horrible.... made up my mind to get a bio tutor if i can find..... one more month left... hope it helps.... i have to help if not i really die.....decided to cut down on tv sessions.... maybe just the ten o clock show.... darcy gave ms soh a shocked of her life yesterday.... it was quite funny but can't be worst then me that time whem i actually flew out of class.... recalled the days i had in cj..... it was really memorable.... can't imagine the days wthout my friends around me... i really hope everyone in my class can get into uni together.... it is sad to be left behind..... but welll now i can't even see my path ahead.... damn scare that i wouldn't be able to pass my a lvls.... life really sucks man.
can't believe that sarah actually failed her gp..... she is our class's top student man.... god gp is really very scary.