man!!!!!!!! i can't wait for school to start!!!!!!!!! i am tired of working and i realise i am losing my identity as a student!!!!!!!!!!!! is that good or bad? i know it sounds insane but i am missing school life and missing the days when i bury myself in tons of books. studying is really more meaning as i starting to feel that my mind has shrunk ever since i start hols. i am getting to understand why my parents kept saying that studying is always better than working life and why my cousins are quitting work to go overseas and study.

chatted with cari on msn just now. just as i expected she's not really coping well as a cashier. well i can only say hang on there gal. don't give up so easily. but if you really can't take it then just quit. maybe cashiering is just not your cup of tea:)

i felt so dumb yesterday. kept blaming myself for it. first, i rushed out of the house before looking at the clock. hence i was super early when i reach town. i forgot to bring along my mum's ring secondly and i kept forgetting what i want to say to mich in the midst of our conversations.

saw someone who looks like mich at the control station lol. mich was laughing like mad when i told her about the doopleganger. had dinner at cental hong kong cafe. shared the fish fillet with cheese baked rice with her cos the portion was huge. the dessert was good. mango saga with pomelos in mango juice yum yum.... after that we went to search for my mum's bdae present..... man i am damn broke now after getting my mum's ring. bought it at moshi moshi. i seriously think that moshi moshi has a wider variety of ring's as compare to other shops. but cos i forgot my mum's ring... i bought the wrong size and i had to go back to change it to a bigger size!!!!!!!!!!!!

went far east after we left wisma. i can't believe we actually walked the whole of far wast just to get a belt and necklace. looks like we really KIV alot and in the end we only got one items each. oh well i can't deny that we are just two stingy freaks..... oops hope mich wouldn't kill me for saying that.

hazel is officially broke... i just realise that i don't have a single cent in my wallet after lunch today..... man gonna start saving up again so that i can go bugis with mich again to search for shorts.

met han at my branch today.... the first sentence that popped out from her mouth was why you suddenly so skinny. are you like on a diet or annorexic. i was like how can that be. i ate a hell lot nowadays so i could have gone fat. anyway i don't care. i don't see any difference in myself when i look in the mirror everyday.

work was bad today..... felt so lethargic when i woke up in the morning. propbably that's why my mood was so bad and i kept slamming my cash box...... oops sorry!!!!!!!!!

still waiting for my ntu reply.... maritime i want you!!!!!!!!!!

oh well i shall end today's entry with a cliche sentence: Tommorrow will be better...

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i just realised how forgetful i am lately. probably due to the insomia i am having nowadays. i hate waiting.... the process of waiting for hope and results is always so painful. Lord please bless me!!!!!!

working at my branch make me realise that i am actually quite a shrew. lol:) probably is due to my character. i hope cariann can cope with the stress of facing customers. esp those that are difficult to handle.... hope she wouldn't cry as she's is not that tough.....

meeting up with mich later for shopping and getting my mum's bdae present.... damn thinking of getting lotsa things for myself too.... damn i have to declare that i am officially broke after today....

came across Nora Roberts' Jewels in the Sun at Pageone the other day. seems like a good book. i am sick of the books at home already:) hope the library has it since it is quite a new book. Saw some literature texts at Pageone too. however, it seems too profound for me to comprehend. too bad.

got in smu. didn't expect it cos i seriously screwed the whole by challenging their usefulness of the course and i also told them frankly that i know nuts about IT. i guess i am just lucky then. probably god heard my prayers too.... got shortlisted for an interveiw for teaching end of this month. sigh:( that's the worst i can ever expect. hate teaching. hope i can get in ntu maritime. that's like my dream!!!!!!!!! God bless me for that.

recently, somehow by looking at the people around me, be it or not i know them it doesn't matter; i know exactly what kind of life and living standards i want in the future. and to me by obtaining a certain course in uni will somewhat guarantee what i will get in the future. this gives me a greater motivation to work for what i want and to really achieve it. am i thinkling too much? or is it just a process of growing up and being mature as all theses thoughts have never struck me in the past.

just a random thought. i was thinking of the affinity we have with the people we come across. we walk past hundreds of people each day and how many of us actually become friends. and how many friends keep in contact with one another for the rest of their lives. why do some remain as acquaintances and others become good friends or even close friends. and some just come and go and you wouldn't hear from them again. isn't it amazing? who exactly is the mastermind behind all these affinities? is there really a friendship that lasts forever......

for you a thousand times.....
damn hazel is hooked on kite runner again. that's like the fifth time she's reading it. somehow after reading it, i will always resent into some sort of sadness and i will walloped in my own miseries.
for you a thousand times...
i just can't get it off my mind. am i going insane?
reading a lit text is not that dreadful afterall. i am starting to like books and visiting the bookshops and libraries.... i guess it is also a habit that i have to keep up if i am going uni. afterall you are all by yourself in uni and no one is going to spoon-feed you with notes and answers.
got screwed during piano lessons ytd. i know i am at a disadvantage without my theory background. and i just can't seem to apply them in my playing. and i just can't seem to put my emotions in as well. man someone help me!!!!!!!!!!
chatted with victor on msn that day. brought back all my memories of band and our conductors. man can't imagine i chatted with him abt the same topic for like 3 hours. anyway it was nice chatting with him cos i have absolutely no idea when will be the next time i chat with him since i haven met up with him for like one year. since he is leaving band... i guess it might also be our last time talking abt it....
for you a thousand times......

went out with my sgb youngsters yeaterday....... nothing special about the outing..... played pool and movie.... felt like just going out with my dearest t38... just that they are different group of ppl. as usual guys are late.... i don't understand why the guys of the 21es century like girls to wait for them... shouldn't be the other way round?
anyway, it is not really a red letter-day for me yesterday. the wisdom tooth extraction was giving me pain. but i really felt like going out so i popped pain killers. it was raining heavily when i got out of the house.... but the worst thing was i got trapped in the stupid lift for like 15 mins..... man i was really hot inside. wasn't really that scary as my block's lift break down very often..... the door opened a small gap and got stuck... tried to force open the door with my hand and leg.... i was in a awkward position for like 15 mins as one of my hands was holding on to the door while the other was pressing the "door open" button. a feel times when i let go of my hand to reply maria's message, the door wanted to close and both doors press against my leg... ouch man. according to maria there's two policemen outside waiting for the person to open the lift door for me and trying to calm me down... infact i wasn't even scared so act not much use. but thanks to them anyway.
finally i got out and met maria at the lift looby of my house and we went to meet the rest.... played pool with the guys for like 2 hours. man it is really stressful playing with them. after which we went for dinner and watched shooter. i can't deny that the shoooter is really great and his shots are fantastic. anyway.... i was freezing in the cinema even though i was wearing long sleeve. should have brought my jacket along. maybe cos the cinema was quite empty....

have been thinking alot these days. probably cos i am too free... oh well i guess i just have to move on. we can't keep looking back and drowning ourselves in our own lamentations. i guess no one knows what i am talking about...
but never mind....

hazel's a lazy blogger. kinda bored to death already....i just realised my life revolves round work, pino and tv. how sad. found joy in watching animes.... SMU interview was kinda bad.... god where am i heading next. please give me some guidance.....