man.... i really hate my piano lessons. somehow i have lose my passion for it... i don't want to play pieces just for exams...... but well...... that's what my dad wants me to.... at least he didn't force me to resume my theory courses.... that's always the worst part....

birthday is tomorrow... but i don't really feel that it is my birthday.... not because i have no celebrations or no presents... i do have celebrations and presents form my parents and friends... but it is like this year i don't really bother about it....esp when you know you are growing older..... sigh... hazel is feeling old.... my colleuges asked me whether i will still be workinf there after i enter uni... cos is like i can just go don't there once or twice during the weekends just to help out... since by the time i will be the confirmed employee... and my collueges are really nice people....i myself do wish i can continue working there during weekends as long as it does not affect my studies should i go uni.... anyway i will need more money by then.... working can earn me the extra buck for me to spend on stuff that i like....... well we shall see.....

the news of my brother having to either retain or go poly is tormenting my parents.... the atmosphere at home now is really weird and tense..... well, i shall just keep my mouth shut.......

hazel is sick for two weeks... and i still refuse to take MC.... (what a good employee)...thinking back when i was schooling.....i will be at home resting when i am at this state.....but i know i can't and i wouldn't want to... somehow working has allow me to become stronger, tougher and more responsible for my own actions.......

i just realise it is just less than 3 weeks to CNY and i am not feeling it!!!!!!!! i just don't feel the festice atmosphere....... anyway nowadays there's no such things as festive atmosphere anymore...... every one faces the same routine evey year..... and you get to see people that you hardly know or keep in contact....... they will start asking you stuff that you wouldn't want to answer...... but the best things of CNY is always the FOOD and ANG BAOS muhahahah.... i lose weight ever since i started working... so i can salvage the CNY goodies this year!!!!!!!!

i am starting to realise that i am beginning to become dependent or let's say reliant on certain of my collegues... whenever i am at the same shift with them i will feel kinda secure.... but i will be disappointed if we are at different shift..... okay that's sounds really wrong but i don't know why..... CNY is round the corner and i am starting to get really busy...... everyday is just like a war..... i really wonder sometimes why the people buy so much stuff.... how are they ever going to finish them... i think the amount can last me a year man.... well never mind i am not the one paying it.... poor hazel has to remove her wisdom tooth..... yucks....she has no wisdom anymore :( okay that's damn lame...hahah anyway anyone give me the courage!!!!!!!!!!!!

decided to update my blog since william they all complained that i haven been updating..... met them for lunch and pool today.... i admit we really suck at pool.... my stupid white ball flew out again.... yes like AGAIN!!!!!!!!!! it almost hit wei xin... i am so sorry!!!!!!!!!!! i hit my own toe with the stupid queue!!!!!! how retarded can i get..... and i tis still hurting... god knows why........... i seriously find that my cashier job is kinda stressful cos i freak out everytime i declare..... it is like.... i don't know... very worrying... cos i was never ever balanced... except for once.... but other jobs are also stressful i guess..... so i shall not complain....... man how i hope i have more outings like today with my class before all of them go for NS...... i am starting to dread going for piano lessons.... not that the teacher is bad but is just that.... this is not i want anymore.... probably.....i lose the passion for it already......

decided to update my blog since william they all complained that i haven been updating..... met them for lunch and pool today.... i admit we really suck at pool.... my stupid white ball flew out again.... yes like AGAIN!!!!!!!!!! it almost hit wei xin... i am so sorry!!!!!!!!!!! i hit my own toe with the stupid queue!!!!!! how retarded can i get..... and i tis still hurting... god knows why........... i seriously find that my cashier job is kinda stressful cos i freak out everytime i declare..... it is like.... i don't know... very worrying... cos i was never ever balanced... except for once.... but other jobs are also stressful i guess..... so i shall not complain....... man how i hope i have more outings like today with my class before all of them go for NS...... i am starting to dread going for piano lessons.... not that the teacher is bad but is just that.... this is not i want anymore.... probably.....i lose the passion for it already......

decided to update my blog since william they all complained that i haven been updating..... met them for lunch and pool today.... i admit we really suck at pool.... my stupid white ball flew out again.... yes like AGAIN!!!!!!!!!! i seriously find that my cashier job is kinda stressful cos i freak out everytime i declare..... it is like.... i don't know... very worrying... cos i was never ever balanced... except for once.... but other jobs also stressful i guess..... so i shall not complain....... man how i hope i have more outings like today with my class before all of them go for NS......