hey everybody i am back.... lolx.... went to Fraser's hill for 5 days.... it is damn nice man.... i got like 5 days of free natural air con...... i think it is better than cameron and genting.... not that there is theme park at fraser's but it is the peacefulness it gave me. it allows me to listen to my heart.....really a good place to meditate.
we stayed in the resort i think is meant for civil servants. then we pay the owner.... they will prepare our meals for us...... the woman's cooking is damn nice man..... i got to nice like different kinds of curries in a day.... everyday after breakfast me and my mum will go explore the place.... we just follow the signboards.... i spent like nearly the whole morning at the go kart ring.... i was damn fun.... lolx why not sy deprived childhood..... i saw lots of farms range from vegetables to horses... the horses were soooo cute...... we tried the off track too.... but we didn't dare to wander far cos there was only two of us...... and we didn't wish to get lost....
i love the night man.... it is like stars galore!!!!!!!!! every night we sat in the gardern and loook at the stars and drink our tea..... the stars are so near that it seems that yuou can just pluck them off the sky.....
every morning when we go to the gardens it is like flowers galore also................the flowers are humongous man..... esp the roses..... hell lot of them... guess is the climate.....but i don't really like roses... i prefer lilies.... lilies are white and pure... heee... but the flowers make me sad though...... cos the flowers will open up in the morning..... and they will wilt the next morning...... then you will see other roses opening up.... just like life..... you will open up..... then we you are the biggest and nicest flower on earth, you reached the peak of your life..... then death follows...
next day when a new flower opens.... it is no longer the same flower....
this time round i have to say sorry to my darlings... cos i nv do any shopping.... i stayed in fraser's hill on the time and it is the countryside.....

gazing at the star,
wishing you were somehow here again.
life is never a bed of roses
the long and winding road tires one out.
the cloud has just passed
the impending storm should not be an excuse to back out.
it just only a lifetime
why wilt even before autumn arrives.
hold back the tears
when the time comes home will be near.

when you spot a shooting star
whisper a wish
when you spot a star shining brightly at you
smile at it
there will be times where there's no stars
so give thanks when you see one
for they give hopes....

well band fest was great.... i think all of us did pretty well... LONG LIVE CJC BAND!!!!!!!!!!! of cos alvin got suan by the others like yang bin abt his tuxedo..... was laughing like mad when they said that... as usual.. oura passed racist remarks abt alvin in front of us.... and of course we know he was just joking and alvin was used to it..... he said that in front of me anne kevin melvin etc.... while we were waiting for boss..... it was damn funny when we first arrived at esplanade.... i didn't meet kevin marrianne they all cos it was really too early.... as usual my sense of direction sucked.... got lost in esplanade.... really joke of the century man..... of all places esplanade... but nonetheless... i called nich and anne directed me through the phone.... many thanks to anne.... when i got to the back stage..... i saw our holding rooms.... lolx.... of all ppl alvin and darren sim were allocated to the same room...... is it coinsidence or purposely... i don't know hahaha...... wonder what they do inside.... when we were in the artise lounge... we were discussing with nizam why they put them together and what they might do inside.... lolx... was really funny... nizam is a nice guy to talk to....
during this band fest.... i wonder who... i think was nich gave my hp number to a guy from tp... without my permission of course.... in the end this guy kept msging me..... i didn't even know who the hell he is..... then ketsu they all kept making fun of me.... as usual.... i act blur.... hmmm i am blur in the first place... if not i wouldn't be call hazy.... my lips were splliting like mad... damn the happy ending 5 pages of freaking high notes.... was madly applying lip balm till today.... sian... hiope it gets well soon

finally it was band fest... today was the first day and i had a terrible day... my dad came back from hk last night at like 11 plus close 12.. i had to help him we the unpacking.... it took damn long.... i managed to sleep like 1 plus... but i couldn't sleep.... i tossed and turned for 1 hour then i finally slept... just when i was about to sleep, it starting raining and there was thunder.... i had to get up to clsoe the window... i am that kind which i wake up very difficult to sleep one... then the night nv sleep.... got up like 6.30 then final check whether i brought the correct stuff cos i am going to stay over at xin's house... angel also.... hahaha... headed to nie.... with the band...ourola was damn funny..... super action pact.... at first i was thinking that there will be more flutist.... so the celtic soli wil be easier.... to my horror, plus me there is only 2 1st flutes.... die.,.. celtic sure die one..... aft the whole thing... we like went to jp makan then shop a little at the night market.... then went home bathe.... after that we had a little ice cream.... and went down to the playground.... got eons of mosquito bites.... but i was fun...the stars tonight were damn nice.....

last night star award was not bad..... at least not like last year..... people fall down when they were coming out from the backstage.... (i shall not mention who fell down last year) most of the award winner were quite expected..... people like ou xuan and bai wei xiu.... oh... if you wanna rob the artise..... last night was a good night.... the jewelleries they wore the most expensive was over 100K.... madness..... and so happy.... edmund chen won... his so cute!!!!!!!!!!!!! so sad idy lee didn't get anything...... i was expecting her to at least get in the shi da zui juan ying nu yi ren.... lolx.... but so sad.... she didn't get in.....haiz.... but i was quite impress by guo liang... cos the sec round he got kicked out of the shi da and he was still able to control his emotions and host the whole event..... and he did it well...... i think he should get the best host award..... sadly he didn't get in..... he got the talent.......

last night star award was not bad..... at least not like last year..... people fall down when they were coming out from the backstage.... (i shall not mention who fell down last year) most of the award winner were quite expected..... people like ou xuan and bai wei xiu.... oh... if you wanna rob the artise..... last night was a good night.... the jewelleries they wore the most expensive was over 100K.... madness..... and so happy.... edmund chen won... his so cute!!!!!!!!!!!!! so sad idy lee didn't get anything...... i was expecting her to at least get in the shi da zui juan ying nu yi ren.... lolx.... but so sad.... she didn't get in.....haiz.... but i was quite impress by guo liang... cos the sec round he got kicked out of the shi da and he was still able to control his emotions and host the whole event..... and he did it well...... i think he should get the best host award..... sadly he didn't get in..... he got the talent.......

behind the views of the silhouette, there is a girl who nevers unveil her mask.... never does reveals her trueself in front of people. not even her family. no one knows her.... sometimes even herself. living in the world of her own and self denial... she learns not to speak the truth and remains silence. being afraid maybe-_-... afraid of losing... afraid of being in a crowd (she does not know how to socialise).... afraid of losing.... afraid of making mistakes.....

band prac on wed was kinda slack... cos half of the time i was alone in a corner... trying to figure out how to play the noah's ark.... there and again there are running notes everywhere.... band room was exceptionally cold on that day... i don't know why... maybe cos of alvin's jokes which fell flat... that stupid 132 was freaking slow.... i was going at a rate which if i alight and run.... i will still be faster then the bus... i was wondering what was freaking wrong with the bus driver.... plus i was damn hungry and was shivering on the bus... god... it was like... hell?

the next day... i went for physio... when i boarded the bus and tapped my card... i found out that my freaking card expires.... what the hell lah.... that day i have to change bus.... and i don't have a freaking 5 cent... got confiscated quite and amount cos i can only use 10 cents... (oops... i sounded like cari) worst still whe i went to amk mrt interchange and ask abt my card which expired... the lady's attitude was darn bad lah.... no wonder singapore's service can no longer compare with other countries like hong kong... i swear i get even better service in countries like malaysia.... i controlled... i went all the way to hougang interchange and ask.... that lady at the counter was worst... she just simply told me call the customer service hotline yourself... please if i can get through i know need to ask you already right...... fine i went home and finally i got through the line.... (like finally) then the person told me that i have to go back to hougang there and get a replacement...... i could only go back today.... cos i don't have a freaking passport size photo in cj sch u...

so i went back today... suay.... that lady again..... i sianz.... then i went up to her.... and when i passed her the card and tried to explained to her.... she can't even be bothered to listen and kept looking at my card and flipping through the lost and found list..... wth lah.... after when she did not find my name in trhe list then she started to "entertain" me.... nad when i told her that i called the hotline and they ask me to come for a replacement cos i am still schooling... and she freaking ignored me again.... and started to phone the hotline and ask what is she supposed to do.... please since you took this occupation you should know what to do right.... not when you are forced to handle then you go and find out.... whatever.... then after 15 mins... she asked me are you j1.... then i said yes.... then she called again....wth... wondering what was she chatting for the past 15 mins..... after she put down the phone... she started to treat me like and idiot.... for christ sake.... you asked me to call the hotline the previous day... like i don't know what's going on... then she said to replace the card you hve to pay lei.... 9 bucks.... yah duh..... like i don't know like that.... of course must pay lah... if not what free ah... there's nth in singapore that is free... even ther's free gifts.... there's conditions to it one loh..... whatever lah.... i spent half an hour just to replace a fraking ez-link card......